Navy SEAL: “Not Killing People Is Hard” - DJ Shipley - #1112

Navy SEAL: “Not Killing People Is Hard” - DJ Shipley - #1112

A retired Navy SEAL who killed people for a living says ibogaine did in 5 days what a decade of therapy couldn't — and he went to Mexico planning not to come back.

Jun 18, 2026 3:00:40 Difficulty: Intermediate Played

TL;DR

Retired Navy SEAL and DEVGRU operator DJ Shipley tells Chris Williamson what no one warned him about: leaving special operations is harder than anything he did inside it. From 30-minute recall schedules and the adrenaline of tier-1 raids, to a decade of suicidal ideation, 60 daily pills, being electrocuted on Father's Day, and an almost-fatal suicide attempt on a Virginia Beach beach, Shipley lays bare the hidden cost of elite military service. His most important takeaway: ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT did in 5 days what years of therapy couldn't.

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DJ Shipley, retired Navy SEAL and former DEVGRU operator, opens up about the brutal reality of transitioning out of elite military service, the psychological toll of hyper-vigilance, his suicide attempt, and how ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT saved his life and marriage.

Chapter list
  • DJ Shipley explains why leaving the military was harder than any mission: your identity disappears overnight and the promised civilian opportunities don't exist.

  • Most operators either contract (same job, more money) or try civilian careers and return within months. The adrenaline of risk is nearly impossible to replace.

  • The only way to make dangerous activities safer is to do them far more than anyone else. Tier 1 operators must sign away the right to any outside pursuits for their first 4–5 years.

  • DJ explains the tier system, what 30-minute recall feels like, and why living inside a fully resourced compound hunting a target is the greatest thing in military life.

  • Parallels between Steph Curry, Michael Phelps, and Tier 1 operators: discipline, routine, and unbroken repetition separate elite performers from everyone else.

  • Chris reads a sponsor segment for LMNT electrolyte drink mix.

  • Living on 30-minute alert creates panic when disconnected from communication. The psychological cost of being always-on is illustrated with phone anxiety and sleeplessness.

  • The flight to an operation — the whine of engines, the thousand-yard stares, mental rehearsal of every detail — is described as a form of meditation that creates feelings of omnipotence.

  • Western forces accept severe tactical disadvantage to minimize civilian casualties. Adversaries exploit those rules by staging weapons and gaming detention systems.

  • Chris reads a sponsor segment for Timeline/Mitopure mitochondrial supplement.

  • DJ discusses how Australian and UK special operators like Ben Roberts-Smith and a 22 SAS soldier face criminal charges that he believes mischaracterize legitimate combat actions.

  • DJ argues that the Five Eyes could end any conventional conflict in six months if allowed to fight without constraints, and that prolonged wars generate enormous profits for defense contractors.

  • DJ hypothetically argues for decisive nuclear deterrence or special operations decapitation as the only ways to end a nuclear-capable adversary conflict quickly.

  • DJ says Trump avoided more conflicts than any president he served under, citing a last-minute cancellation of a major op, and discusses the calculus of unpredictable leadership as deterrence.

  • Special operations is less Expendables, more professional sports team — relaxed grooming standards, team-room philosophers, and near-universal obsession with craft.

  • Chris reads a sponsor segment for Gymshark training apparel.

  • A chart showing IQ inversely correlates with violent behavior illustrates why finding someone who enjoys books AND bar fights — essential for Tier 1 work — is extremely rare.

  • DJ was in the same DEVGRU squadron but too junior to be selected. He describes watching teammates buy $1,000 sunglasses before going, not knowing where they were headed, then celebrating when Obama made the announcement.

  • DJ reacts with fury to theories that the Extortion 17 shoot-down was an inside job, noting the harm these narratives cause to the dead operators' families and children.

  • Chris reads a sponsor segment for Whoop 5.0 health wearable.

  • Chris plays a clip of an admiral's speech about American military deterrence; DJ reacts with pride and discusses why Britain's military isn't valued the same way culturally.

  • Elite operators adjust every aspect of life — sleep schedules, diet, social circle — while silently accumulating catastrophic injuries, TBIs, sleep debt, and pharmaceutical dependency.

  • Overseas deployments mean no sunlight for months, hard-boiled eggs three times daily, inverted sleep cycles, and fingernails falling out from vitamin D deprivation.

  • When operators return home after 300 days away they feel like strangers. The mismatch between deployment mode and family life creates resentment, emotional distance, and a spiral back to work.

  • Three weeks before retirement, DJ is severely electrocuted doing fracture art, shatters his collarbone, faces potential full-body muscle removal surgery, and transitions gimped-up with double arm slings.

  • A new doctor discovers DJ is on four medications that together cause stroke and death; he's sent to what he's told is a medical detox but is actually a psychiatric ward at Walter Reed.

  • Post-retirement, with no mission, no group, no routine, DJ begins cheating, spiraling into depression, and coming to terms with having no transferable skills and no sense of self.

  • DJ discloses he wanted to kill himself every single day from 2013 to 2020–2021, both in and out of service, and describes the gym routine as the only thing that kept overriding it.

  • DJ's wife finds Marcus and Amber Capone's ibogaine documentary. DJ agrees to go largely to keep the peace, carrying a photo standing on a cliff's edge 80 feet above jagged rocks.

  • Ibogaine surfaces all buried memory, allows perspective-shifting into others' points of view, builds forced empathy, lasts 16 hours, and eliminates every addiction upon waking.

  • Coming home to 30 boxes of his belongings and divorce papers, DJ drives to a private beach with a pistol, chooses a song, and is stopped by his wife's tracking app at the last moment.

  • After 5 failed 5-MeO rounds of emotional resistance, DJ takes the sixth with the intention to die. The ego dies instead, and he wakes up desperate to get home.

  • His wife discovered all his affairs while he was in Mexico. They sit together, DJ confesses everything, blocks 150 contacts, signs a postnup, and earns one day at a time. Their marriage is now extraordinary.

  • DJ's ibogaine sessions never surfaced military trauma — only childhood wounds and identity loss from leaving. He argues most veteran suffering is heartbreak, not PTSD.

  • DJ recommends Ambio Life Sciences and Veteran Solutions for ibogaine treatment, stresses the importance of pre-work and post-integration, and warns against taking a slot casually.

  • DJ describes speaking at Moody Air Force Base where no hands went up asking about mental health struggles, and why firefighters and police need the same open-dialogue breakthrough.

  • Chris and DJ wrap up; DJ directs listeners to GBRs Group on Instagram and Chris plugs the Modern Wisdom Reading List at chriswillx.com/books.

DEVGRU
Naval Special Warfare Development Group, the U.S. Navy's Tier 1 counter-terrorism unit, commonly known as SEAL Team Six.
Tier 1
The highest classification of special operations units, characterized by the most funding, fastest response times, and most classified missions.
CQB
Close Quarters Battle — tactical room-clearing and building-assault techniques used in urban combat environments.
TBI
Traumatic Brain Injury — a brain dysfunction caused by an external force; common among combat veterans from blast exposure and hard landings.
ISR
Intelligence, Surveillance, and Reconnaissance — the collection of data about enemy activity using aircraft, drones, and sensors.
5-MeO-DMT
5-methoxy-N,N-dimethyltryptamine, a potent psychedelic compound derived from the Bufo alvarius toad venom, used in therapeutic settings to produce rapid ego dissolution.
Ibogaine
A psychoactive substance derived from the African iboga plant, used in clinical settings to interrupt addiction and surface deep psychological trauma in a single extended session.
Atmospherics
In military intelligence, the aggregated signals from phone calls, emails, and behavioral patterns used to build a comprehensive profile of a target or area.
Rhabdo (Rhabdomyolysis)
A condition where damaged muscle tissue releases proteins into the bloodstream that can cause kidney failure; DJ Shipley's doctor warned him electrocution triggers a similar enzyme cascade.
Stellate Ganglion Block (SGB)
A nerve block injection in the neck that resets the sympathetic nervous system and has shown promise in treating PTSD symptoms and hypervigilance.
Prazosin
A blood pressure medication repurposed in the military to suppress PTSD-related nightmares by blocking adrenaline receptors during sleep.
Cymbalta (Duloxetine)
An SSRI/SNRI antidepressant also prescribed for chronic pain; discontinuing it abruptly causes severe withdrawal symptoms including electric-shock sensations known as 'brain zaps'.
Gabapentin
An anticonvulsant drug prescribed off-label for nerve pain and anxiety; combined with Cymbalta it produces intense withdrawal jolts when stopped.
Extortion 17
The callsign of a Chinook helicopter shot down in Afghanistan on August 6, 2011, killing 38 people including 17 Navy SEALs — the single deadliest loss for Naval Special Warfare.
Fracture burning
An art technique using high-voltage electricity from a modified microwave transformer to burn Lichtenberg figures (branching lightning patterns) into bare wood.
Compartmentalization
The psychological ability to mentally isolate stressors, emotions, or personal problems so they do not interfere with the task at hand — a trained trait in special operators.
Kinetic energy
Military slang for direct-action combat operations involving physical force, as opposed to intelligence or diplomatic efforts.
Cloneable
A term used in special operations culture to describe an operator so well-rounded that duplicating him would multiply team effectiveness; the highest informal compliment.

Chapter 1 · 00:00

Intro: The Hardest Thing Was Leaving

DJ Shipley explains why leaving the military was harder than any mission: your identity disappears overnight and the promised civilian opportunities don't exist.

Chapter 2 · 02:05

Contracting, Goldman Sachs, and Getting Pulled Back In

Most operators either contract (same job, more money) or try civilian careers and return within months. The adrenaline of risk is nearly impossible to replace.

Chapter 3 · 04:23

Buying Down Risk Through Obsessive Repetition

The only way to make dangerous activities safer is to do them far more than anyone else. Tier 1 operators must sign away the right to any outside pursuits for their first 4–5 years.

Chapter 4 · 09:00

Tier Structure, 30-Minute Recall, and Life in the Compound

DJ explains the tier system, what 30-minute recall feels like, and why living inside a fully resourced compound hunting a target is the greatest thing in military life.

Chapter 5 · 14:40

Elite Athletes and Special Operators: Universal Obsession

Parallels between Steph Curry, Michael Phelps, and Tier 1 operators: discipline, routine, and unbroken repetition separate elite performers from everyone else.

Claims made here

Logging 10,000 hours of practice at 8 hours per day takes approximately 4 years.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Chapter 8 · 24:10

The Helo Ride In: Meditating Before Combat

The flight to an operation — the whine of engines, the thousand-yard stares, mental rehearsal of every detail — is described as a form of meditation that creates feelings of omnipotence.

Claims made here

South Korea has the lowest birth rate in the world, and a key contributing factor is that K-pop stars are contractually required to remain unpartnered and childless, providing a dominant cultural model.

Chris Williamson no source cited

Chapter 9 · 29:20

Rules of Engagement, Collateral Damage, and Enemy Manipulation

Western forces accept severe tactical disadvantage to minimize civilian casualties. Adversaries exploit those rules by staging weapons and gaming detention systems.

Claims made here

War crimes by US and allied forces are now extremely rare compared to World War II and Vietnam because ubiquitous surveillance technology means any incident would be captured and prosecuted.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Every person shot in Iraq or Afghanistan results in a cash payout to the family by the US government, regardless of whether they were a combatant.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Chapter 11 · 38:05

War Crimes Allegations Against Veterans

DJ discusses how Australian and UK special operators like Ben Roberts-Smith and a 22 SAS soldier face criminal charges that he believes mischaracterize legitimate combat actions.

Chapter 13 · 44:20

Ending the War in Iran: The Hypothetical

DJ hypothetically argues for decisive nuclear deterrence or special operations decapitation as the only ways to end a nuclear-capable adversary conflict quickly.

Chapter 14 · 46:40

Trump: Avoiding Conflict and the Maduro Raid

DJ says Trump avoided more conflicts than any president he served under, citing a last-minute cancellation of a major op, and discusses the calculus of unpredictable leadership as deterrence.

Chapter 15 · 50:00

Civilian Misconceptions About Special Operations Daily Life

Special operations is less Expendables, more professional sports team — relaxed grooming standards, team-room philosophers, and near-universal obsession with craft.

Chapter 17 · 54:10

IQ, Violence, and Why You Can't Mass-Produce Elite Operators

A chart showing IQ inversely correlates with violent behavior illustrates why finding someone who enjoys books AND bar fights — essential for Tier 1 work — is extremely rare.

Chapter 18 · 59:20

The Osama Bin Laden Raid: Inside the Squadron That Did It

DJ was in the same DEVGRU squadron but too junior to be selected. He describes watching teammates buy $1,000 sunglasses before going, not knowing where they were headed, then celebrating when Obama made the announcement.

Claims made here

Extortion 17, shot down in Afghanistan on August 6, 2011, killed all 31 people on board including 17 Navy SEALs, and was the single deadliest incident for Naval Special Warfare.

DJ Shipley no source cited

David Goggins and Jocko Willink together have put more people into military service over the last 10 years than anyone else in the last 50 years.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Chapter 21 · 1:10:28

US Military Power and the Admiral's Speech

Chris plays a clip of an admiral's speech about American military deterrence; DJ reacts with pride and discusses why Britain's military isn't valued the same way culturally.

Chapter 24 · 1:30:00

Reintegration: Feeling Like a Guest in Your Own House

When operators return home after 300 days away they feel like strangers. The mismatch between deployment mode and family life creates resentment, emotional distance, and a spiral back to work.

Chapter 25 · 1:36:05

Electrocuted on Father's Day: The Walter Reed Detox and Near-Death

Three weeks before retirement, DJ is severely electrocuted doing fracture art, shatters his collarbone, faces potential full-body muscle removal surgery, and transitions gimped-up with double arm slings.

Claims made here

The divorce rate in the Navy SEAL teams exceeds 100% because many operators divorce and remarry multiple times throughout their career.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Society & Culture
Electrocuted on Father's Day

Navy SEAL: “Not Killing People Is Hard” - DJ Shipley - #1112 · Jun 18, 2026 Society & Culture

Three weeks before retirement, DJ Shipley grabbed live electrical cables in his backyard while his kids watched from the window. The electricity shattered his collarbone, blew exit wounds out of his palms and thighs, threw him across the yard — and doctors said every muscle in his body might liquefy within hours.

Chapter 26 · 1:49:10

Walter Reed: 31-Day Detox and the Psych Ward He Didn't Know He Needed

A new doctor discovers DJ is on four medications that together cause stroke and death; he's sent to what he's told is a medical detox but is actually a psychiatric ward at Walter Reed.

Chapter 27 · 1:52:00

The Fall from Grace: Identity Collapse and Spiral After Retirement

Post-retirement, with no mission, no group, no routine, DJ begins cheating, spiraling into depression, and coming to terms with having no transferable skills and no sense of self.

Claims made here

SEAL team operators are away from home a minimum of 270 days per year, sometimes as many as 350 days.

DJ Shipley no source cited

DJ Shipley experienced suicidal ideation every single day from approximately 2013 until 2020–2021, both while active duty and during transition.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Chapter 29 · 2:09:20

Mexico Beckons: Wife Finds Ibogaine, DJ Goes With No Plan to Return

DJ's wife finds Marcus and Amber Capone's ibogaine documentary. DJ agrees to go largely to keep the peace, carrying a photo standing on a cliff's edge 80 feet above jagged rocks.

Claims made here

Before ibogaine treatment, DJ Shipley was taking approximately 60 pills per day, including Adderall, Cymbalta, Zoloft, Prazosin, Tramadol, Toradol, Percocet, and Vicodin.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Chapter 30 · 2:14:55

The Ibogaine Experience: Memory, Empathy, and Addiction Gone

Ibogaine surfaces all buried memory, allows perspective-shifting into others' points of view, builds forced empathy, lasts 16 hours, and eliminates every addiction upon waking.

Claims made here

Ibogaine is derived from the iboga plant in West Africa and eliminates addiction in a single session regardless of the substance, including heroin, gambling, sex, and pornography.

DJ Shipley no source cited

After ibogaine treatment, DJ Shipley stopped consuming two cans of Copenhagen chewing tobacco daily that he had used every day since age 18, and has not touched it since.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Chapter 31 · 2:23:48

The Suicide Attempt and the Beach

Coming home to 30 boxes of his belongings and divorce papers, DJ drives to a private beach with a pistol, chooses a song, and is stopped by his wife's tracking app at the last moment.

Chapter 32 · 2:28:40

5-MeO-DMT: Killing the Ego on Round 6

After 5 failed 5-MeO rounds of emotional resistance, DJ takes the sixth with the intention to die. The ego dies instead, and he wakes up desperate to get home.

Claims made here

Ibogaine reduces PTSD and depression symptoms by approximately 80–90% almost instantly, taking patients from severe hypervigilance to baseline normal within about 12 hours.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT combined is equivalent to 15–20 years of conventional therapy compressed into a 5-day process.

DJ Shipley no source cited

The Netflix documentary 'In Ways and War' featuring veterans using ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT was instrumental in advancing Trump's executive action to fast-track research into psychedelic treatments for veterans.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Society & Culture
She Boxed His Stuff While He Was in Mexico

Navy SEAL: “Not Killing People Is Hard” - DJ Shipley - #1112 · Jun 18, 2026 Society & Culture

While DJ Shipley was in Mexico doing ibogaine, his wife hacked his phone and found every affair. She boxed every item he owned, hired a lawyer, and filed for divorce. He came home to 30 boxes in his office and a gun in his waistband. What happened next is one of the most remarkable relationship stories you'll hear.

Chapter 33 · 2:33:40

Reintegration After Ibogaine: Affairs, Divorce Papers, One More Day

His wife discovered all his affairs while he was in Mexico. They sit together, DJ confesses everything, blocks 150 contacts, signs a postnup, and earns one day at a time. Their marriage is now extraordinary.

Chapter 34 · 2:39:50

The Real Source of Veteran Trauma and the Path Forward

DJ's ibogaine sessions never surfaced military trauma — only childhood wounds and identity loss from leaving. He argues most veteran suffering is heartbreak, not PTSD.

Chapter 35 · 2:43:20

How to Use Ibogaine and Where to Go

DJ recommends Ambio Life Sciences and Veteran Solutions for ibogaine treatment, stresses the importance of pre-work and post-integration, and warns against taking a slot casually.

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The divorce rate in the Navy SEAL teams exceeds 100% because many operators divorce and remarry multiple times throughout their career.

DJ Shipley no source cited

David Goggins and Jocko Willink together have put more people into military service over the last 10 years than anyone else in the last 50 years.

DJ Shipley no source cited

SEAL team operators are away from home a minimum of 270 days per year, sometimes as many as 350 days.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Before ibogaine treatment, DJ Shipley was taking approximately 60 pills per day, including Adderall, Cymbalta, Zoloft, Prazosin, Tramadol, Toradol, Percocet, and Vicodin.

DJ Shipley no source cited

After ibogaine treatment, DJ Shipley stopped consuming two cans of Copenhagen chewing tobacco daily that he had used every day since age 18, and has not touched it since.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Ibogaine reduces PTSD and depression symptoms by approximately 80–90% almost instantly, taking patients from severe hypervigilance to baseline normal within about 12 hours.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT combined is equivalent to 15–20 years of conventional therapy compressed into a 5-day process.

DJ Shipley no source cited

South Korea has the lowest birth rate in the world, and a key contributing factor is that K-pop stars are contractually required to remain unpartnered and childless, providing a dominant cultural model.

Chris Williamson no source cited

Ibogaine is derived from the iboga plant in West Africa and eliminates addiction in a single session regardless of the substance, including heroin, gambling, sex, and pornography.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Every person shot in Iraq or Afghanistan results in a cash payout to the family by the US government, regardless of whether they were a combatant.

DJ Shipley no source cited

War crimes by US and allied forces are now extremely rare compared to World War II and Vietnam because ubiquitous surveillance technology means any incident would be captured and prosecuted.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Extortion 17, shot down in Afghanistan on August 6, 2011, killed all 31 people on board including 17 Navy SEALs, and was the single deadliest incident for Naval Special Warfare.

DJ Shipley no source cited

Logging 10,000 hours of practice at 8 hours per day takes approximately 4 years.

DJ Shipley no source cited

DJ Shipley experienced suicidal ideation every single day from approximately 2013 until 2020–2021, both while active duty and during transition.

DJ Shipley no source cited

The Netflix documentary 'In Ways and War' featuring veterans using ibogaine and 5-MeO-DMT was instrumental in advancing Trump's executive action to fast-track research into psychedelic treatments for veterans.

DJ Shipley no source cited