Podbit · On Purpose with Jay Shetty
Riz Ahmed believes his inner critic was so relentless it caused an autoimmune condition — his body literally turned on itself. Two years after winning an Emmy for The Night Of, he was still waking at night to run scenes. He calls shame the thing that can actually kill you.
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Emerging from his hospitalisation, Riz Ahmed began making the connection between his psychological state and his physical collapse. [1] — Riz Ahmed "Riz Ahmed believes his inner critic was so relentless it caused an autoimmune condition — his body literally turned on itself. Two years af…" 42:30 Citing The Body Keeps the Score, he argues that he was at war with himself: his inner critic so ferocious, his shame so deep, that his body had literally turned on itself in an autoimmune response. He gives a telling example: two years after winning an Emmy for The Night Of — after the show had aired and his career was at a peak — he was still waking in the middle of the night to rehearse scenes, his critical voice insisting he wasn't good enough. The shame he felt around his illness — not wanting anyone to see him weak, nearly dying — kept it private for years. But he frames the creation of Mogul Mowgli, Sound of Metal, and Bait as his act of defiance against that shame: owning the experience, losing the shame, making work from the most personal place as an act of healing.
Lying in an NHS hospital ward, unable to walk or lift his arms, Riz Ahmed was moved to tears by a pigeon on his windowsill. He hadn't earned that moment of beauty. That realisation — that everything he had was a gift — became the spiritual foundation he carried back into the world.
Riz Ahmed believes his autoimmune illness was caused by his inner critical voice being so relentless that his body literally turned on itself — a thesis also explored in The Body Keeps the Score.
Two years after winning an Emmy for The Night Of, Riz Ahmed still woke in the middle of the night to rehearse scenes — his inner critic saying he wasn't good enough despite the award.
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