Podbit · The Hidden Third
Nikki arrived in Hawaii sober, enrolled at the University of Hawaii, and relapsed the first night. She and her friend showed up to the first day of classes — and used that as an excuse to party. School lasted days.
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The escalation was fast. Middle school drinking gave way to psychedelics and then, by 16, to cocaine and crack — vials of which Nikki would buy by running into New York City from Teaneck. The drugs did exactly what trauma survivors often need them to do: they took her out of the pain. It was her cousin Matt — himself a recovered addict turned counselor — who finally saw what was happening and intervened. Nikki went to rehab, then a halfway house in Miami, and genuinely tried to get it together. She was proud of being sober. But as she reflects now, she never touched the pain underneath — and that meant the sobriety was always temporary, a structure built on sand. With a friend's invitation to Hawaii dangling in front of her, a fresh start felt possible. She was wrong, but she couldn't have known that yet.
By 16, Nikki was running into New York City from suburban New Jersey for vials of crack. Drugs were the only thing that took her out of her pain. Rehab at 16 got her sober — but never touched what was underneath.
By 16, Nikki was using cocaine and crack, running into New York City from New Jersey for vials of crack, before her cousin intervened and she attended her first rehab.
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