Podbit · The Hidden Third
Meeink walked into a community college cable access office at 17 and got his own show — the neo-Nazi Wayne's World, complete with skits and racist music. The First Amendment protected it. He was arrested at his second taping.
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The movement ships Meeink to Springfield, Illinois to escape Philadelphia warrants. Within days of arrival he assaults an anti-racist skinhead at a mall and is arrested — but the Philly and Jersey warrants are dropped in the jurisdictional shuffle, and Springfield lets him walk. Suddenly free of legal jeopardy, he sets up a neo-Nazi cable access show at Lincoln Land Community College — Abraham Lincoln's own Springfield, a detail not lost on Meeink. The show is deliberately designed to be engaging where older white-supremacist shows were boring: skits, music, jokes, and a young punk energy that he calls 'the racist Wayne's World.' He's also recruiting aggressively out of two high schools, using music and social pressure to pull in suburban kids. The arrest that ends this chapter comes during the taping of the second episode.
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