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Why the Wrong Person Feels Like Home | Sheleana Aiyana
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Anger, Addiction, and the Defenses of a Child Without Safety
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Sheleana recounts packing her entire world into a backpack and walking three or four hours through the night to sleep on her mother's doorstep, only to find no one home. As she got older, the longing curdled into bitterness and a hard exterior. By 12 she was drinking, in and out of trouble, surrounded by people significantly older, in environments where showing vulnerability could be genuinely dangerous. Lewis recognises the pattern — craving love while being unable to receive it — and Sheleana confirms: anger was the front, with sadness and longing buried underneath, a switch she describes as universal. She had visions from a very young age that her suffering was material she was gathering to serve others — an extraordinary sense of purpose that Lewis says he didn't develop until his mid-30s. For Sheleana, it came from spirit, and it channeled into writing. [1] — Sheleana Aiyana "At 12, Sheleana was drinking, sleeping on couches, and running with people five to ten years older. She was comfortable showing anger but c…" 06:05
Sheleana never met her father, never saw a photo of him, and grew up with a mother who said nothing good about men. The result: she would flee the room every time a friend's father came home, as if he were a wild animal. The absence of a father archetype created a wound she carried into every relationship.
