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She Was the Crystal Meth Queen of Waikiki. Then She Became a PTA Mom in New Jersey.
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Parenting, Truth-Telling, and Writing Breaking Good
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Both of Nikki's daughters are adults now — one turning 30, one just graduated at 22. Neither needed to know the full story until Nikki decided to put it in a book. The older daughter, whose origins connect directly to Nikki's time on the streets, was told in pieces over years. The younger one is still processing; she jokes she'll read it eventually. Writing the book forced Nikki to tell her daughters what she'd never planned to say. But it also forced a public reckoning with the part of her story she found hardest to own: not the drug dealing, not prison, not sex work — but the moments during her opioid relapse when she failed the two children she had worked so hard to build a life for. That chapter, she says, was the most painful to write. Part 4 of Breaking Good is structured as both an explanation and a public apology to her daughters, told through the lens of therapy.
The work of therapy, for Nikki, was dismantling the belief her family installed at age 10: that she was inherently bad, responsible for everything, and deserving of nothing. The clicks — moments of rewiring — are what she put in Part 4 of her book.
