During a January ice storm with 40–50 mph winds, the Douglas fir Sarah Bond had been denied permission to remove came crashing down on her house — directly onto the closet where her daughter JoJo and a friend had gone to look for cats. Everyone survived, but barely.
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With the permit denied and a fine of more than $10,000 hanging over any unauthorized removal, Sarah and Joel try to make peace with the looming Douglas fir. They get a dog and two Siamese cats. They squint at the tree from different angles, hoping to convince themselves it will miss the house. They can't. Every windstorm becomes a sleepless night of cracking branches and shooting upright in bed. Winter is the worst, with Portland's ice storms. By the time a January storm rolls in — winds at 40 to 50 miles an hour, the power out — the family has been living under this threat for nearly three years. Sarah's daughter JoJo has a friend over that Saturday morning, and the two girls head upstairs to look for the cats.
In Portland, cutting down a tree without a permit can result in a fine exceeding $10,000.
Sarah Bond's family lived in fear under the leaning Douglas fir for almost three years before it finally fell on their house.
The Portland ice storm during which the Douglas fir fell on Sarah Bond's house had winds of 40 to 50 miles per hour.
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Jungian analyst James Hollis distills a good life to four things: shut up (have gratitude, stop whining), suit up (prepare yourself to fulfill a role), show up (do the actual work in service of others), and daily get out of stimulus-response to ask what your deeper wish actually is. The whole landscape of self-help slots into just these four bins.
Toward the end of their 20s, many men discover that all the strategies that earned them recognition and success have stopped working. It's a second adolescence — more important than the first — where the question shifts from 'how do I play the game?' to 'who do I actually want to become?' Most people going through it look fragile from the outside. They're actually building a foundation.
Boys are told from childhood not to cry, not to feel, not to be weak — but anger gets a pass. The result: a generation of men who reroute every emotion, including sadness and fear, through the only acceptable channel. Emotional avoidance isn't toughness, it's misdirected sensitivity.
Men need a 'bank account' of masculine status — muscle, money, success — before society grants them permission to express vulnerability. Chris Bumstead can cry at the Olympia and get celebrated. A struggling nobody doing the same thing gets contempt. This creates a tragic paradox where the men who most need emotional support get the least of it.
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For someone with RSD, ghosting isn't ambiguity — it's a self-verdict. Their brain doesn't read 'this relationship ended,' it reads 'I am the reason this failed.' No closure means the brain fills the gap with evidence of personal insufficiency, and it keeps filling indefinitely.
More freedom doesn't produce more happiness — it produces more anxiety. Kierkegaard identified this 180 years ago: the more options you have, the more you feel the 'dizziness of freedom,' a paralytic unease at having to choose any single one. The freest generation in history is, by his prediction, exactly the most anxious.
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