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Mo Wilson wrote in 2022 that when you love something enough to fully commit, the risk becomes irrelevant — because even if you fail, it will have been worth it. She was 25 years old and had already lived that principle more than most people do in a lifetime.
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Armstrong's legal fight continued well past the verdict. Her lawyers filed for a new trial in December 2023, claiming she had been pregnant at the time of her arrest and miscarried in custody — an evidentiary hearing was denied in August 2024 and the appeal refused. On January 23, 2026, an appeals court upheld her conviction entirely. On the civil side, Mo's family was awarded a $15 million default judgment — $5 million each to Karen, Eric, and in exemplary damages — after Armstrong failed to appear at the hearing [1] — Host "$15 million wrongful death default judgment: A court awarded Mo's family a $15 million default judgment against Kaitlyn Armstrong after Arm…" 1:11:02 . A second civil suit named Armstrong's family and Colin Strickland, alleging asset transfers to shield money. Meanwhile, Mo's family channeled their grief into the Mariah Wilson Foundation, distributing over $140,000 to youth sports organizations and hosting an annual Ride for Mo on the Kingdom Trails in Vermont where Mo grew up.
A court awarded Mo's family a $15 million default judgment against Kaitlyn Armstrong after Armstrong failed to appear at the civil wrongful death hearing.
Mo's family founded the Mariah Wilson Foundation to get kids into cycling and skiing who couldn't otherwise afford it — the two sports Mo loved most. In its first years, the foundation has distributed over $140,000 to organizations across the country. Every year, they host a Ride for Mo on the Kingdom Trails where she grew up.
The Mariah Wilson Foundation, founded by Mo's family, has given over $140,000 to various organizations to get kids into cycling and skiing who otherwise wouldn't have the opportunity.
More freedom doesn't produce more happiness — it produces more anxiety. Kierkegaard identified this 180 years ago: the more options you have, the more you feel the 'dizziness of freedom,' a paralytic unease at having to choose any single one. The freest generation in history is, by his prediction, exactly the most anxious.
Every person lives in constant tension between infinite possible selves and the finite, limited self they actually are. Tipping too far toward infinite possibility produces a loss of identity; too much confinement in the finite produces stagnation. Kierkegaard argued that this tension is never solved — only managed.
Standing outside a cold pool imagining reasons not to jump is the exact experience of pre-commitment anxiety. Once you jump, the shock passes and you wonder why you ever hesitated. The same mechanism governs every significant commitment in life — the dread is always on the outside, the relief on the inside.
Traditional societies had rites of passage that closed off childhood and opened adulthood. Modern society kept the in-between liminal phase but eliminated the ritual that resolved it. The result is 'emerging adulthood' — a decade or more stuck in the transition — engineered by rising education requirements, women entering the workforce, and delayed marriage.
When Mark Manson proposed to his wife, software he didn't know was running — the low-level assessment of sexual market value and other options — suddenly shut down. Commitment doesn't take freedom away. It trades optionality (freedom to do many things) for focus (freedom from distraction). John Dewey called these positive and negative freedom, and the latter is more powerful.
Mark Manson spent years as a location-independent digital nomad — always a new country, a new woman, a new venture. Then the diminishing returns kicked in: countries started feeling the same, dates felt identical, businesses all frustrated him. The cure wasn't more novelty. It was narrowing: one place, one person, one career.
Every meaningful commitment has a dip — an initial peak of excitement, a brutal trough of difficulty, and a second higher peak for those who push through. Institutions once kept people in the dip long enough to reach the other side. With infinite optionality and no institutions, everyone bails at the bottom and restarts the cycle of shallow first peaks.
Stage one — the aesthetic — is the default: chasing sensation, novelty, and keeping every door open. Stage two — the ethical — is learning to choose with eyes wide open, accepting the trade-offs. Stage three — the religious — is when a commitment becomes so total that it no longer feels like a choice. It just feels like who you are.
The ethical stage is rational commitment — you can explain your choices. The religious stage is when your commitment exceeds rational justification. You can't explain why. It just feels like it chose you. Kierkegaard called this the 'virtue of the absurd' — and it's represented not just in faith but in the entrepreneurs, artists, and athletes who can't imagine doing anything else.
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