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The Ketamine Years: Money, Addiction, and Emotional Emptiness
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Money brought neither peace nor presence. Wall describes becoming completely money-centric — vacations interrupted by logistics calls, relationships valued in dollar terms, generosity mistaken for goodness. The pressure of running an illegal multi-million dollar operation with no legal recourse sent him to ketamine daily — he describes it as 'psychedelic Xanax,' a way to completely check out. He was using large quantities, Mariana noting it was what killed Matthew Perry. Wall's reflection is honest: he was buying dinners and giving to the homeless, telling himself that made him a good person. It didn't. The only currency that actually matters, he now believes, is attention and time.
